Three years ago I was in so much pain that leaving this world, ending my life, was the only way I believed the pain would all end.
Last night I started writing a post about what got me to that point and I couldn’t complete it, I became too emotional. I will complete that post in the next little while but for now, what’s in my heart, is just to say:
Tell someone you are happy they are ALIVE today.
You might believe they know it, you might believe you’ve told them that you love them recently or that they should just know … and you probably have and they probably should but how many times have you said the words, “I’m glad you are alive today”? Those are different words than “I love you”. Those are powerful words.
Part of the way suicidal thoughts mess with your mind is that you begin to believe that you are a burden, you begin to believe the world is better off without you; you begin to believe that those who love you and are hurting or frustrated at you or with you because of your trials or difficulties. Sometimes they might be because sometimes it is hard to struggle with one’s own challenges, let alone those of family and friends and that’s okay but that doesn’t mean that life is better or easier without that person in it.
Over the past three years I have met with many family members of individuals who have taken their own lives and time and time again they tell me, “The pain of handling their problems with them or watching them in pain is nothing compared to the pain it is to have them gone. I would deal with their struggles forever if I could just have them back.”
If you are reading this and you are contemplating ending your life, don’t do it. Talk to a family member, a friend, a church adviser, or a hotline: 1-800-273-8255. Talk to ANYONE but don’t go, please don’t go.
Tell someone you are happy they are alive today, you might never know the difference it can make. Tomorrow is “Alive Day” and I will be spending it trying to show others I am glad they are alive, you should join me. Last year to celebrate tomorrow, I made a video about all the moments I would have missed out on if I had been successful in ending my life. Here is the link: Alive Day.
Life continues to bring challenges and difficulties and sometimes those old thoughts creep back in and I believe it would be better to be gone but that is a lie for me and anyone else who might think it.
We are all connected, we all need each other.
Be the difference for someone else, let them know you are happy they are on this earth and in your life.
I love you all. I am happy you are all alive!